Friday, May 20, 2011

Graduation 2011

Today a lot of my close friends graduated from the University of Texas at Austin, hook'em horns! The ceremony started at 9AM, I know super early! But I couldn't miss it for the world especially because one of my BFF's Anna Maria Benitez graduated! She had plenty of support from her family and friends. Here are a couple of pictures from today's day. 

Anna walking the stage! You go girl! 
The Eyes of Texas Are Upon Youuuuuuuuu!
Anna and her parents who flew in from Rhode Island and Florida to come see her! She loves them so much! I have never seen a couple so in love =) 
Anna and me!
Fail picture! But here Alejandra joined us. I love her too!
There was seriously something up at the entrance/exit of this garage because for 35 minutes NOBODY! I repeat NOBODY could get out. We were slowly dying from all these cars being turned on but finally made it out and headed to Chilis. 
Typical... what can I say I'm a burger girl. I was on a major food coma after this. I went home and passed the f out! Well I didn't get any sleep the night before but still I slept good after this.

This blog will be updated are I get more pictures. Thanks for visiting =) 

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

What Am I Doing Here?

Have you ever woken up one night and asked yourself, what am I doing here? Well I've been asking myself that same question for weeks now. I've been spending a lot of time alone, thinking....  thinking about my future, where I want to go, who I want to be... just everything about my life. Since I've been back to Austin, a part of me feels incomplete. There's something in my life missing and it's keeping me from being happy. But what should I do? Should I go in search of this missing piece?  Should I put school on hold? But I'm so close!!! Will it be worth it?

I was much happier when I was working in Dallas. Something about working gave me a sense of control and independence. I was able to make decisions and have a say in a business I knew nothing of. While here in Austin, I feel stuck. I'm confined to my apartment the majority of my day. All I do is go to school, come back home, go to school, come back home. I have no sense of control and financially I'm so dependent on my family. I hate it!

My relationship with an ex-boyfriend only made things worst. When you care so much about somebody, only to find out they don't care the same way about you, well it's a really crappy feeling. Next thing I knew, I felt like the most worthless and unloved person. A part of me wondered how I could be so stupid to waste my time. I even considered him my best friend. A part of me just feels so empty and cold right now.... I'll be okay :)
Back to my life.... so for weeks now I've been thinking about my life. I was finally able to come up with an idea of what I want to do, where I see myself headed. Hopefully this brings some happiness into my life and enables me to enjoy it to the fullest. I might have to put some things on hold, but I'll worry about that later, and let life take care of it. I'm just excited to be going back to Dallas this weekend(HOME SWEET HOME!) and be surrounded by my family and friends. This is the only life I'll ever have and I have to do what makes me happy.

"It's never too late to be who 
you might have been." 
~George Eliot