I was much happier when I was working in Dallas. Something about working gave me a sense of control and independence. I was able to make decisions and have a say in a business I knew nothing of. While here in Austin, I feel stuck. I'm confined to my apartment the majority of my day. All I do is go to school, come back home, go to school, come back home. I have no sense of control and financially I'm so dependent on my family. I hate it!
My relationship with an ex-boyfriend only made things worst. When you care so much about somebody, only to find out they don't care the same way about you, well it's a really crappy feeling. Next thing I knew, I felt like the most worthless and unloved person. A part of me wondered how I could be so stupid to waste my time. I even considered him my best friend. A part of me just feels so empty and cold right now.... I'll be okay :)